My First "Sick Day"

After nearly two years and two months at my current job, today is my first official Sick Day. I probably could've gone to work this morning (actually, I did, to pick up my laptop) but there was no way I could spend the entire day there with my runny nose, congested sinuses, and overall achy body. I think this is my body's way of telling me to slow the F down.

So what's been going on with me lately? Lately it's been difficult for me to articulate exactly what's going on in my life - I've been overwhelmed, stressed, exhausted. I can't seem to put my thoughts into words out loud, but maybe I'll have better luck on paper.

The first thing I've realized is that I'm not so much "stressed" as I am "stretched". Or maybe I'm both. When you put stress or strain on an object, you're putting pressure on it, and enough pressure at some point will cause the board or person, or whatever, to break. People can't break. Instead, people are stretched like a rubber band in a million different ways. A rubber band is meant to be elastic, flexible, stretchy, resilient - depending on the thickness of the band, etc. You'd have to put a lot more strain on a rubber band than a board to make it snap. So, right now I feel as though I'm being stretched in too many different directions, I'm experiencing too many emotions and I'm unable to truly deal with any of it which is a real shame.

But, I'm trying to find ways to cope. One way is through yoga, which has taught me that there are good ways to stretch the mind and body. When you've got a rubber band as stretched as it can be, you also have to be careful about how you relieve that pressure, and yoga has been awesome. I've also been reading this book called The Secret, recommended to me by Sasha, and it's been helping me to cope with all this stress, "stretch", and anxiety. The book talks about the law of attraction - that we attract to us what we think about. So, if we want that happily ever after fairy tale ending, we need to constantly visualize it. The more we put out what we want to the universe, the more likely we are to receive it. In the mean time though, we should trust the universe, and act as though we have already received it - we should fill our emotions with the happiness and joy we would feel if we were to already have what we desire most. We need to trust that it will eventually come to us, and it will.

So, cheers to positive energy, positive thinking, and positive feeling. I'm glad I have this day off to recuperate, reshuffle my thoughts, and hopefully start tomorrow on a better foot!